wow let me just start off by saying my day ended on a SUPERB note thanks to the rain. AHHH gotta love it. but today has been very socially fulfilling. i enjoyed a nice breakfast at eggs n things with alyssa, sarah, and laura. we stared at the cutest of couples until they realized we were talking about them. oh well. they were adorb. i had work as usual, then i enjoyed a nice peppermint twist mocha from starbies with my old friend meganb! it was awesome because we haven't really hung out in a while, and it was just so nice to sit down and catch up and discuss life. ANYWAY aside from the two fun little social events today, i've realized that my lifestyle right now almost makes me feel as if i'm a prisoner. i have not really left southern california for over a year now, and i'm having extreme hardships and cravings for a bigger and better city life out of Thousand Oaks, CA. it's not that i don't appreciate this city, i just feel as if i've done all the growing i can possibly accomplish here and there is so much left to do, but i can't do much else being trapped here.
it feels as if i'm water flowing in a pipe for example. my whole life i've been continuing my flow casually and enjoyably, but all of a sudden there's a blockage in the pipe, and the water is frantic because it's meant to be pushed forward but now it's stopped in its tracks, leaving it to go absolutely berserk! and this is how i feel mentally right now. i feel as if my growth is stunted by the confines of my routine life in Suburbsville, population:DGAF! i really help my parents let me go alone on a road trip in two weeks to visit my friend up in Sonoma and possibly be able to visit San Fran as well. i feel a small escape would be great for my psyche.
ohhhhh well other than that i guess i'm just gonna hit the sack for now. i'm extremely tired and may meditate in half-lotus position. it looks as if Seal might be next on my playlist as well :D! goodnight all
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it's official: DGAF december
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